Ashley Cains girlfriend Safiyya Vorajee details her excruciating grief – Daily Mail

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Ashley Cain’s girlfriend Safiyya Vorajee took to Instagram on Sunday night to detail her unthinkable grief after the death of their eight-month-old daughter. 

Azaylia passed away last month following a heartbreaking fight with acute myeloid leukaemia, which the couple closely documented on social media, and since her death they have used Instagram as outlets for their suffering. 

In a long post, the aesthetic clinician, 35, wrote: ‘My days feel so empty, my life feels so lost, my body feels so alone. But my soul feels so full’, while also noting that Azaylia passed away during ‘the special time’ of Ramadan. 

Heartache: Ashley Cain's girlfriend Safiyya Vorajee took to Instagram on Sunday night to detail her unthinkable grief after the death of their eight-month-old daughter

Heartache: Ashley Cain's girlfriend Safiyya Vorajee took to Instagram on Sunday night to detail her unthinkable grief after the death of their eight-month-old daughter

Heartache: Ashley Cain’s girlfriend Safiyya Vorajee took to Instagram on Sunday night to detail her unthinkable grief after the death of their eight-month-old daughter

In her post, Safiyya penned: ‘I struggle all through the day and night… When the journey I was on was difficult mentally, I didn’t realised it was going to get harder…

‘Looking after my baby in hospital from eight weeks old wasn’t the way I was expecting to become a mummy. But I counted everyday as a blessing that I am Azaylia’s mummy and would give her 100% everyday!…

‘I studied every part of her diagnosis, I learnt all her medicine because I couldn’t have done nothing less for my baby. Stuggling mentally with losing my baby. My days feel so empty, my life feels so lost, my body feels so alone…

‘But my soul feels so full, my spiritual alert feels so engaged more than ever this is because Azaylia has given me a reason to connect with life in such a different way. I am struggling everyday but from each day I am gaining a new vision…

Tragic: Azaylia passed away last month following a heartbreaking fight with acute myeloid leukaemia, which the couple closely documented on social media, and since her death they have used Instagram as outlets for their suffering

Tragic: Azaylia passed away last month following a heartbreaking fight with acute myeloid leukaemia, which the couple closely documented on social media, and since her death they have used Instagram as outlets for their suffering

Tragic: Azaylia passed away last month following a heartbreaking fight with acute myeloid leukaemia, which the couple closely documented on social media, and since her death they have used Instagram as outlets for their suffering

Her love: She then commemorated the special time in which she was born, writing: 'I lost Azaylia in the holy month of Ramadan. This is a special time. Innaa lillaahi wa inna ilayhi raaji'oon [“Indeed, to Allah we belong and to Allah we shall return]'

Her love: She then commemorated the special time in which she was born, writing: 'I lost Azaylia in the holy month of Ramadan. This is a special time. Innaa lillaahi wa inna ilayhi raaji'oon [“Indeed, to Allah we belong and to Allah we shall return]'

Her love: She then commemorated the special time in which she was born, writing: ‘I lost Azaylia in the holy month of Ramadan. This is a special time. Innaa lillaahi wa inna ilayhi raaji’oon [“Indeed, to Allah we belong and to Allah we shall return]’

‘Azaylia welcomed me everyday with a beautiful smile. I will find a new way to eventually live and I will keep your name alive Azaylia.’

She then commemorated the special time in which she was born, writing: ‘I lost Azaylia in the holy month of Ramadan. This is a special time. Innaa lillaahi wa inna ilayhi raaji’oon [“Indeed, to Allah we belong and to Allah we shall return]…

‘We will be together one day in paradise Azaylia. I love you, I miss you my sweet angel.

It comes shortly after Ex On The Beach star Ashley, 30, revealed ‘the pain of not being able to see my little girl is consuming my body’. 

Angel: She shared an incredible snap of Azaylia layered over the sky

Angel: She shared an incredible snap of Azaylia layered over the sky

Angel: She shared an incredible snap of Azaylia layered over the sky 

Heartbreaking: The grieving father told fans: 'It's taking everything I have to begin each new day'

Heartbreaking: The grieving father told fans: 'It's taking everything I have to begin each new day'

Heartbreaking: The grieving father - who lost his daughter Azaylia, eight months, to acute myeloid leukaemia in April - told fans: 'It's taking everything I have to begin each new day'

Heartbreaking: The grieving father - who lost his daughter Azaylia, eight months, to acute myeloid leukaemia in April - told fans: 'It's taking everything I have to begin each new day'

Heartbreaking: The grieving father told fans: ‘It’s taking everything I have to begin each new day’

Difficult: Sharing a photo of a new pair of orange running trainers, Ashley admitted although 'things won't get easier' he is taking inspiration from Azaylia and forcing himself to 'get up'

Difficult: Sharing a photo of a new pair of orange running trainers, Ashley admitted although 'things won't get easier' he is taking inspiration from Azaylia and forcing himself to 'get up'

Difficult: Sharing a photo of a new pair of orange running trainers, Ashley admitted although ‘things won’t get easier’ he is taking inspiration from Azaylia and forcing himself to ‘get up’

Sharing a photo of a new pair of orange running trainers, Ashley admitted that although ‘things won’t get easier’ he is taking inspiration from Azaylia and forcing himself to ‘get up, get out’.

Posting two snaps of his fluorescent orange shoes – a colour he’d picked due to it being Azaylia’s favourite – the former footballer explained: ‘For days I’ve wondered when I would have the strength to put them on and hit the road.’

He added: ‘The truth is, I don’t feel strong, I feel far from it. But in times of weakness, I have come to think… “What would Azaylia do?”

Ashley continued: ‘She would be strong, she would be courageous and she would get up, get out, and do what is needed to be done.’

He explained: 'I got them in orange to represent Azaylia and her battle, in the hope they would inspire me to get out and work through the pain'

He explained: 'I got them in orange to represent Azaylia and her battle, in the hope they would inspire me to get out and work through the pain'

He explained: ‘I got them in orange to represent Azaylia and her battle, in the hope they would inspire me to get out and work through the pain’

His heartbreaking message read in full: ‘Right now, it’s taking everything I have to begin each new day.

‘The pain of not being able to see my little girl is consuming my whole body. So this afternoon, I put on my new running trainers that I bought after Azaylia gained her angel wings.

‘I got them in orange to represent Azaylia and her battle, in the hope they would inspire me to get out and work through the pain.

‘For days I’ve wondered when I would have the strength to put them on and hit the road. The truth is, I don’t feel strong, I feel far from it.

‘But in times of weakness, I have come to think… “What would Azaylia do?”

‘She would be strong, she would be courageous and she would get up, get out, and do what is needed to be done. She would push through every challenge with intent and without hesitation.

‘So that’s exactly what I’m going to do! I guess the pain will never fade and things will not get easier, but we will get stronger.’

Brave: Posting snaps of his orange shoes - a colour he'd picked due to it being Azaylia's favourite - he said: 'For days I've wondered when I would have the strength to put them on'

Brave: Posting snaps of his orange shoes - a colour he'd picked due to it being Azaylia's favourite - he said: 'For days I've wondered when I would have the strength to put them on'

Brave: Posting snaps of his orange shoes – a colour he’d picked due to it being Azaylia’s favourite – he said: ‘For days I’ve wondered when I would have the strength to put them on’

Hours earlier, Safiyya shared a clip of a red evening sky which she saw as a sign from her late daughter Azaylia.

Safiyya called Azaylia her ‘guardian angel’ following her passing last week aged eight months, after a brave battle with acute myeloid leukaemia. 

Taking to Instagram on Saturday, Safiyya told how she recorded the clip from Love Island star Molly-Mae Hague’s Instagram of the sky after she was looking for signs from her daughter.

Heartwarming: Ashley's girlfriend Safiyya Vorajee shared a clip of a red evening sky which she saw as a sign from her late daughter Azaylia

Heartwarming: Ashley's girlfriend Safiyya Vorajee shared a clip of a red evening sky which she saw as a sign from her late daughter Azaylia

Heartwarming: Ashley’s girlfriend Safiyya Vorajee shared a clip of a red evening sky which she saw as a sign from her late daughter Azaylia

She wrote: ‘I keep looking up into the sky and looking for signs from Azaylia. So tonight I went to see her. As I left, I asked her what she was going to do special, for me in the sky tonight.

‘As I was driving I couldn’t capture this moment but it made me say out loud. Wow.’ 

‘I had to screen record this off @mollymae story and show you what I saw as she captured the moment so beautifully.’ 

Safiyya then shared the clip of the breathtaking sky and captioned it: ‘Having a moment’ along with an orange heart. 

Moving: Safiyya, 35, called Azaylia her 'guardian angel' following her passing last week aged eight months, after a brave battle with acute myeloid leukaemia

Moving: Safiyya, 35, called Azaylia her 'guardian angel' following her passing last week aged eight months, after a brave battle with acute myeloid leukaemia

Moving: Safiyya, 35, called Azaylia her ‘guardian angel’ following her passing last week aged eight months, after a brave battle with acute myeloid leukaemia

She wrote: 'I keep looking up into the sky and looking for signs from Azaylia. So tonight I went to see her. As I left, I asked her what she was going to do special, for me in the sky tonight'

She wrote: 'I keep looking up into the sky and looking for signs from Azaylia. So tonight I went to see her. As I left, I asked her what she was going to do special, for me in the sky tonight'

Heartbreaking: She shared a poignant post

Heartbreaking: She shared a poignant post

She wrote: ‘I keep looking up into the sky and looking for signs from Azaylia. So tonight I went to see her. As I left, I asked her what she was going to do special, for me in the sky tonight’

She then wrote: ‘The purest love I have ever felt in my life is for you Azaylia.  The most incredible girl my hero, my baby, my inspiration. ADC. May God protect you, my guardian angel.’

It comes after Ashley shared his agony over Azaylia’s death in a heartbreaking Instagram post on Saturday.

The grieving father told how he was ‘broken and hurting’ following her passing last week. 

Clip: Safiyya told how she recorded the clip from Love Island star Molly-Mae Hague's Instagram of the sky after she was looking for signs from her daughter

Clip: Safiyya told how she recorded the clip from Love Island star Molly-Mae Hague's Instagram of the sky after she was looking for signs from her daughter

Clip: Safiyya told how she recorded the clip from Love Island star Molly-Mae Hague's Instagram of the sky after she was looking for signs from her daughter

Clip: Safiyya told how she recorded the clip from Love Island star Molly-Mae Hague's Instagram of the sky after she was looking for signs from her daughter

Clip: Safiyya told how she recorded the clip from Love Island star Molly-Mae Hague’s Instagram of the sky after she was looking for signs from her daughter

In the message posted on his stories, the former Ex On The Beach star thanked fans for their support, while vowing to honour Azaylia’s name by continuing to help other children and families facing their own battles. 

He penned: ‘I wanted to take this time to give thanks for all of your love, care and support for Azaylia throughout her battle and still now for us as a family.

‘I am broken and hurting more and more everyday right now.

‘But I made a promise to my daughter that I would keep her name alive by continuing to help other children, adults and their families during their own battles and I will honour that promise until I see her again.’

'Likkle Lion': grieving father Ashley told how he was 'broken and hurting' following her passing last week

'Likkle Lion': grieving father Ashley told how he was 'broken and hurting' following her passing last week

‘Likkle Lion’: grieving father Ashley told how he was ‘broken and hurting’ following her passing last week 

Pain: In the message posted on his stories, the former Ex On The Beach star thanked fans for their support, while vowing to continue Azaylia's name by continuing to help other children

Pain: In the message posted on his stories, the former Ex On The Beach star thanked fans for their support, while vowing to continue Azaylia's name by continuing to help other children

Pain: In the message posted on his stories, the former Ex On The Beach star thanked fans for their support, while vowing to continue Azaylia’s name by continuing to help other children

'Your so beautiful I think about you all day and night': The grieving mother also shared an adorable picture of her baby smiling and waving

'Your so beautiful I think about you all day and night': The grieving mother also shared an adorable picture of her baby smiling and waving

 ‘Your so beautiful I think about you all day and night’: The grieving mother also shared an adorable picture of her baby smiling and waving 

Stay strong: In another post, Safiyya uploaded her final photo cuddling her daughter and said: '1 week ago this was all happening. You are so incredible Azaylia, you have changed my life'

Stay strong: In another post, Safiyya uploaded her final photo cuddling her daughter and said: '1 week ago this was all happening. You are so incredible Azaylia, you have changed my life'

Stay strong: In another post, Safiyya uploaded her final photo cuddling her daughter and said: ‘1 week ago this was all happening. You are so incredible Azaylia, you have changed my life’

Azaylia battled acute myeloid leukaemia for the majority of her life and was diagnosed just two months after she was born.  

Ashley confirmed the tragic news on social media last Sunday, writing: ‘Rest In Paradise Princess. I will always hold you in my heart until I can hold you again in heaven ❤️ #AzayliaDiamondCain.’ 

The couple recently raised more than £1.5million to fund a trip to Singapore for life-saving transplant, but their little one became too unwell and doctors discovered tumours throughout her body. 

Following her death, fans continued to donate to the GoFundMe Page and have so far raised the total past £1.6million. 

 Azaylia – who inspired her father’s powerful ‘let’s go champ’ message – underwent four rounds of chemotherapy during her fight and was recently nominated for a Pride Of Britain Award by thousands of supporters around the world.   

Tributes: The couple recently raised more than £1.5 million to fund a trip to Singapore for life-saving transplant and following her death, fans continued to donate

Tributes: The couple recently raised more than £1.5 million to fund a trip to Singapore for life-saving transplant and following her death, fans continued to donate

Tributes: The couple recently raised more than £1.5 million to fund a trip to Singapore for life-saving transplant and following her death, fans continued to donate

Moving: Ashley, meanwhile, penned a lengthy post thanking his baby girl for 'saving his life and giving him purpose'

Moving: Ashley, meanwhile, penned a lengthy post thanking his baby girl for 'saving his life and giving him purpose'

Moving: Ashley, meanwhile, penned a lengthy post thanking his baby girl for ‘saving his life and giving him purpose’

A timeline of Azaylia’s six-month leukaemia battle

October 2020: Ashley emotionally revealed his daughter had been diagnosed with a ‘rare and aggressive’ form of leukaemia, which he described as an ‘uphill battle’. 

Heartbreaking: Ashley emotionally revealed his daughter had been diagnosed with a 'rare and aggressive' form of leukaemia in October

Heartbreaking: Ashley emotionally revealed his daughter had been diagnosed with a 'rare and aggressive' form of leukaemia in October

Heartbreaking: Ashley emotionally revealed his daughter had been diagnosed with a ‘rare and aggressive’ form of leukaemia in October

Azaylia was turned away by doctors three times and prescribed laxatives and a nasal spray when her breathing was impeded, shortly before her diagnosis.

By the end of the month, the brave child faced her second surgery and 16th chemotherapy-related treatment in less than two weeks.

November 2020: Azaylia’s hair started to fall out just weeks after she was diagnosed.

Doctors informed Ashley and his family that the tot needed a bone marrow transplant and blood donation.

Due to her Caribbean, Burmese, Indian and English background, the footballer said it was very difficult to find a match for a transplant. 

Azaylia was brought home for a few days before her second round of chemotherapy.

December 2020: 80,000 people became stem cell donors 48 hours after Ashley appealed for the public’s help.

So sad: Azaylia's hair started to fall out just weeks after she was diagnosed in November

So sad: Azaylia's hair started to fall out just weeks after she was diagnosed in November

So sad: Azaylia’s hair started to fall out just weeks after she was diagnosed in November

January 2021: The TV star confirmed a stem cell donor had been found for his baby daughter Azaylia. 

She received her stem cell transplant but her cancer sadly returned following a third round of chemotherapy. 

February 2021: Azaylia responded well to her stem cell treatment and doctors were impressed with ‘how strong she was’. 

She underwent further surgery to discover whether her leukaemia had gone. Later in the month, doctors revealed her cancer had returned. 

March 2021: They were told there were ‘very few options’ to help the baby’s condition before she had another bone marrow test. She relapsed by the end of the month and underwent her fourth round of chemotherapy.

Ashley surpassed his target goal of £1million after he set up a GoFundMe to pay for life-saving treatment for his daughter Azaylia.

Heartbreaking: Healthcare professionals revealed Azaylia only had a few days to live as they discovered tumours all over her body in April

Heartbreaking: Healthcare professionals revealed Azaylia only had a few days to live as they discovered tumours all over her body in April

Heartbreaking: Healthcare professionals revealed Azaylia only had a few days to live as they discovered tumours all over her body in April

The former Ex On The Beach star took to social media to ask fans for help in donating, explaining the treatment his daughter needed is available in Singapore.

Ashley described the treatment, CAR-T therapy, as ‘the only option to save Azaylia’s life’ and said he and partner Safiyya may have to fly out in a matter of weeks, adding it will take a minimum of one year.

Celebrities such as former TOWIE star Kate Ferdinand, Love Island’s Molly-Mae Hague and PrettyLittleThing founder Umar Kamani all donated.

Despite efforts from around the world, pharmaceutical companies could not release the life-saving drugs needed to beat his daughter Azaylia’s battle. 

Tender moments: Her parents bathed her in the hospital for a final time before they returned home later that month

Tender moments: Her parents bathed her in the hospital for a final time before they returned home later that month

Tender moments: Her parents bathed her in the hospital for a final time before they returned home later that month

April 2020: Healthcare professionals revealed Azaylia only had a few days to live as they discovered tumours in her stomach, her spleen, her liver and her kidneys, in addition to tumours in her brain.

Her parents bathed her in the hospital for a final time before they returned home.

They marked her turning eight months old by having moulds made of her feet, and Azaylia was met with support from the London Underground and Dwayne ‘The Rock’ Johnson.

She received life-prolonging transfusion after her condition caused profuse bleeding and public figures joined the nationwide clap held in her honour.

Scary: The influencer's 'fragile' daughter stopped breathing and suffered seizures before Ashley confirmed her death

Scary: The influencer's 'fragile' daughter stopped breathing and suffered seizures before Ashley confirmed her death

Scary: The influencer’s ‘fragile’ daughter stopped breathing and suffered seizures before Ashley confirmed her death

Azaylia was nominated for a Pride of Britain award and had a plane draw a heart in the sky for her.

The tot was put on oxygen to aid her sleep, and struggled to open her eyes due to swelling.

Scam artists set up fake Facebook pages in her name, with Ashley admitting: ‘We feel really sad it has come to this’.

Azaylia returned to hospital for another platelet transfusion a few days before she died.

The influencer’s ‘fragile’ daughter stopped breathing and suffered seizures before Ashley confirmed her death.

 

 

 

 

 

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