Candice Brown reflects on her mental health struggle and quite bad year – Daily Mail

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Candice Brown has reflected on her struggle with her mental health, saying she’s had ‘a hell of a year’.

The former Great British Bake Off star, 36, spoke candidly on Friday’s edition of Loose Women, admitting she has felt ‘quite bad’ in recent months.

She explained to the panel: ‘It’s been a hell of a year… my mental health has been something I’ve battled with for maybe seven years now – before Bake Off, during, after and most recently quite bad.

'It's been a hell of a year': Candice Brown reflected on her mental health struggle and admitted it's gotten 'quite bad' in recent months while on Friday's Loose Women

'It's been a hell of a year': Candice Brown reflected on her mental health struggle and admitted it's gotten 'quite bad' in recent months while on Friday's Loose Women

‘It’s been a hell of a year’: Candice Brown reflected on her mental health struggle and admitted it’s gotten ‘quite bad’ in recent months while on Friday’s Loose Women

‘Frankie [Bridge] was the first person I spoke to quite openly and in public about it.  I got diagnosed with ADHD in January last year which kind of explains to me and gives me that it’s not just me being completely disorganised, late – there’s a reason for it.

She went on, ‘It’s funny, I was a teacher and I looked after the special needs department, I was working with students that had ADHA, stereotypically it’s young boys, hyperactive on the go all the time. 

‘I was in the middle, I wasn’t massively over achieving, I got on well with the teachers, but I always picked subjects I didn’t have to sit down in like PE, Drama, Food.’

Honest: Candice told the panel, 'My mental health has been something I've battled with for maybe seven years now - before Bake Off, during, after and most recently quite bad'

Honest: Candice told the panel, 'My mental health has been something I've battled with for maybe seven years now - before Bake Off, during, after and most recently quite bad'

Honest: Candice told the panel, ‘My mental health has been something I’ve battled with for maybe seven years now – before Bake Off, during, after and most recently quite bad’

Struggle: Reflecting on her struggle accepting her mental health battle, she went on: 'I spent so many years being ashamed of it and the mental health I have and the trauma'

Struggle: Reflecting on her struggle accepting her mental health battle, she went on: 'I spent so many years being ashamed of it and the mental health I have and the trauma'

Struggle: Reflecting on her struggle accepting her mental health battle, she went on: ‘I spent so many years being ashamed of it and the mental health I have and the trauma’

Reflecting on her struggle accepting her mental health battle, she went on: ‘I spent so many years being ashamed of it and the mental health I have and the trauma that led to depression and PTSD and it took me a long time to learn that it wasn’t my fault.

‘It’s been incredible, people are like wow we never expected that, you seem so confident. That was the reason for the make-up and the dresses, that was my kind of shield.

‘It’s really important to not be ashamed and go it’s okay not to be okay and ask for help – and still function as well.’ 

New attitude: Candice has changed her outlook now as she said, 'It's really important to not be ashamed and go it's okay not to be okay and ask for help - and still function as well'

New attitude: Candice has changed her outlook now as she said, 'It's really important to not be ashamed and go it's okay not to be okay and ask for help - and still function as well'

New attitude: Candice has changed her outlook now as she said, ‘It’s really important to not be ashamed and go it’s okay not to be okay and ask for help – and still function as well’

On Thursday, Candice revealed that opening up about her mental health battle in her new book ‘nearly broke’ her as she was ‘terrified’ of speaking openly about her issues.

In quotes from her book, Happy Cooking, as revealed in The Sun, the Great British Bake Off star, 36, detailed her struggle with anxiety, admitting: ‘I have had days where I didn’t want to get out of bed.’

Candice, who won the baking show in 2016, told how she’s had the ‘hardest’ and ‘most difficult’ year of her life’, in the wake of her split from husband Liam Macaulay, her ADHD diagnosis and her pub’s difficulties brought on by the pandemic. 

Struggle: On Thursday, Candice revealed that opening up about her mental health battle in her new book 'nearly broke' her as she was 'terrified' of speaking openly (pictured in 2020)

Struggle: On Thursday, Candice revealed that opening up about her mental health battle in her new book 'nearly broke' her as she was 'terrified' of speaking openly (pictured in 2020)

Struggle: On Thursday, Candice revealed that opening up about her mental health battle in her new book ‘nearly broke’ her as she was ‘terrified’ of speaking openly (pictured in 2020)

And in candid words from her book, Candice admitted how hard it was opening up about the difficulties she’s faced in her life, adding that getting her feelings ‘on paper’ was one of the most ‘toughest’ things she had to do.

She explained: ‘This book is testament to the fact that every day I just about put one foot in front of the other and I am here. Ironic that a book about food (my favourite thing) and mental health has nearly broken me. But in truth it has.’

She went on: ‘I am laying myself bare, talking about things I’ve not really spoken about and quite frankly I am terrified.’

Opening up about her mental health struggles, Candice admitted there was days she ‘didn’t want to get out of bed’ and had purposely cancelled planned or had not spoken to her loved ones, admitting she felt ‘useless’. 

Candid: In quotes from her book, Happy Cooking, the Great British Bake Off star detailed her struggle with her anxiety, admitting: 'I have had days where I didn't want to get out of bed' (pictured in 2020)

Candid: In quotes from her book, Happy Cooking, the Great British Bake Off star detailed her struggle with her anxiety, admitting: 'I have had days where I didn't want to get out of bed' (pictured in 2020)

Candid: In quotes from her book, Happy Cooking, the Great British Bake Off star detailed her struggle with her anxiety, admitting: ‘I have had days where I didn’t want to get out of bed’ (pictured in 2020)

However, the star credited cooking with getting her through her ‘darkest days’, noting that she feels in her ‘comfort zone’ when in her kitchen.

Candice went on to call cooking her ‘saviour’, commenting that the act of learning from her mistakes and working out how to improve them has been like ‘therapy’ to her . 

She went on: ‘Cooking gives me confidence when I feel my least confident. It reminds me I can do something good, that I can make people smile and bring joy through something I have done myself. Cooking reminds me that I am good enough.’ 

She added that the pastime had helped her push through some ‘proper s**t times’ and ‘continues’ to do so amid the troubles in her personal life. 

Tough time: Candice, who won the cooking show in 2016, told how she's had the 'hardest' and 'most difficult' year of her life', in the wake of her split from husband Liam Macaulay (pictured together in 2018)

Tough time: Candice, who won the cooking show in 2016, told how she's had the 'hardest' and 'most difficult' year of her life', in the wake of her split from husband Liam Macaulay (pictured together in 2018)

Tough time: Candice, who won the cooking show in 2016, told how she’s had the ‘hardest’ and ‘most difficult’ year of her life’, in the wake of her split from husband Liam Macaulay (pictured together in 2018)

Candice revealed last month that she had experienced the worst year of her life after splitting from her husband Liam Macaulay.

It was announced that Candice and her tree surgeon ex Liam had decided to separate after less than two years of marriage last July.

Candice spoke out about her tough time on The Burn Chef Journal podcast.

She said: ‘I had a very difficult year last year — the hardest of my life. How the f*** I’m still going, I don’t know. But it was just a lot to take in, a lot to deal with.’ 

Candice, who runs her pub the Green Man in ­Eversholt, said: ‘Mental health is something I’ve always struggled with.

Hard: Candice admitted how hard it was opening up about the difficulties she's faced in her life, adding that getting her feelings 'on paper' was one of the most 'toughest' things she had to do (pictured in 2020)

Hard: Candice admitted how hard it was opening up about the difficulties she's faced in her life, adding that getting her feelings 'on paper' was one of the most 'toughest' things she had to do (pictured in 2020)

Hard: Candice admitted how hard it was opening up about the difficulties she’s faced in her life, adding that getting her feelings ‘on paper’ was one of the most ‘toughest’ things she had to do (pictured in 2020)

Honest: ': 'I am laying myself bare, talking about things I’ve not really spoken about and quite frankly I am terrified' (pictured in May)

Honest: ': 'I am laying myself bare, talking about things I’ve not really spoken about and quite frankly I am terrified' (pictured in May)

Honest: ‘: ‘I am laying myself bare, talking about things I’ve not really spoken about and quite frankly I am terrified’ (pictured in May)

‘I also got diagnosed with ADHD, hence the disorganisation and forgetfulness.’

She revealed: ‘On the days we were shut and towards the end of the year I said, ‘I don’t know if I can do this on my own if lockdown happens again.

‘I just can’t do it. I need to be on the go all the time and that silence and darkness on top of a brain that can be quite dark anyway was a lot.’   

Saviour: The star credited cooking with getting her through her 'darkest days', noting that she feels in her 'comfort zone' when in her kitchen

Saviour: The star credited cooking with getting her through her 'darkest days', noting that she feels in her 'comfort zone' when in her kitchen

Saviour: The star credited cooking with getting her through her ‘darkest days’, noting that she feels in her ‘comfort zone’ when in her kitchen

The famous baker first met her husband Liam in the bar where he worked while studying for a degree, back in 2012.

After five years of dating, the couple announced their engagement in October 2017, just over a year after she first appeared on Bake Off.

Candice exchanged nuptials with her longtime love at Château de Varennes in Burgundy, France, in September 2018.

Heartbreak: Candice revealed last month that she had experienced the worst year of her life after splitting from her husband  Liam after less than two years of marriage (pictured in 2017)

Heartbreak: Candice revealed last month that she had experienced the worst year of her life after splitting from her husband  Liam after less than two years of marriage (pictured in 2017)

Heartbreak: Candice revealed last month that she had experienced the worst year of her life after splitting from her husband  Liam after less than two years of marriage (pictured in 2017)

 

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