Joey Essex breaks down in tears over bottling up grief of mum’s suicide during therapy session… – The Sun

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JOEY Essex broke down in tears as he admitted bottling up his grief about his mum’s suicide during a therapy session.

The reality TV star has bravely spoken about his devastating loss in a BBC documentary Joey Essex: Grief and Me.

Joey Essex was overcome with emotion in a therapy session

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Joey Essex was overcome with emotion in a therapy session

The 30-year-old’s struggle was captured on camera as he opened up to a therapist about being unable to cope two decades on.

“I just feel trapped,” sobbed Joey.

“She loved me, but she left me.

“I just don’t think I’ll be able to let go.

He couldn't stop crying

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He couldn’t stop crying

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The 29-year-old wants help to deal with his devastating loss aged 10

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The 29-year-old wants help to deal with his devastating loss aged 10

“I don’t give a **** about all this in life, I’d choose her over anything.”

The tragedy has left deep-rooted scars, as Joey admits the grief is killing his dream of starting a family and finding true love.

He says: “I just think to myself: If she loved me that much, why would she leave me?

“I’ve had loads of relationships but I always end up pushing them away.

“Imagine if I was with someone and I had kids with them and I really did love that person and then she left me. I wouldn’t know what to do. I’m already thinking we’re gonna break up before we’re together. I’m pushing it away.

Joey has been romantically linked to plenty of stars, including Sam Faiers

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Joey has been romantically linked to plenty of stars, including Sam FaiersCredit: Getty
But his relationships, like his recent fling with Lorena Medina, haven't lasted

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But his relationships, like his recent fling with Lorena Medina, haven’t lastedCredit: Rex

YOU’RE NOT ALONE

EVERY 90 minutes in the UK a life is lost to suicide.

It doesn’t discriminate, touching the lives of people in every corner of society – from the homeless and unemployed to builders and doctors, reality stars and footballers.

It’s the biggest killer of people under the age of 35, more deadly than cancer and car crashes.

Yet it’s rarely spoken of, a taboo that threatens to continue its deadly rampage unless we all stop and take notice, now.

That is why The Sun launched the You’re Not Alone campaign.

The aim is that by sharing practical advice, raising awareness and breaking down the barriers people face when talking about their mental health, we can all do our bit to help save lives.

Let’s all vow to ask for help when we need it, and listen out for others… You’re Not Alone.

If you, or anyone you know, needs help dealing with mental health problems, the following organisations provide support:

“I’ve gone from being a big party boy going out. Now I genuinely do want a family. I want to find true love.

“I think that my life has been too painful for that person to be with. Because I don’t put them through what I’ve been through.

“I know I need to change things now so I’ve decided to look for help.”

 

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